lets do the time warp again

looks like i havent been here in four years or so

crazy

maybe ill make blogging a regular thing again, maybe i can do it from my phone, ill have to look into it i guess. so ive gotten married since last i blogged, its been almost two years (anniversary is in august)

at school ATM getting ready to stop procrastinating on an essay im supposed to write, but im starting up this blog instead.

i love board games.

the end. for now...

stunning realizations

so, apparently the recipe for feeling lonely and bored, might not need to call for going somewhere else, at least not alone.

utahs a nice place, but i dont really know too many people, and those that i do know i either dont know how to get in contact with them or they are working and have no time for me.

salt lake city has a lot of homeless people, which is very depressing, and even though the snow was fun and exciting, that only lasted a little bit, dont really know what else to do here, i guess i didnt really want to see anything, as i wanted to see some people, but well... thats not going to well yet. so for now... ill be alone again.

at least in oregon i knew people and knew what activities were going on, im sad that i missed speed dating and will miss the mystery dinner, which i got a phone call and was asked to moderate it, but i was out of town.

at least i can still go dancing at night, its one of the few things that allows me to forget how alone i feel even for a little while.

Utah

well well well... mayhaps i could get into blogging regularly again?

i dont know

so ive been in utah for more than a ful day already, and ive had a good time, I ate myself a crown burger, went to the one world cafe, and viseted temple square. i also stole linz's library card to access the webernets.

crown burger is good, but they totally need to come to oregon, and so does the one world cafe, its got to be one of the greatest ideas ever thought up by anyone, the square was quite lovely and serene, and i went on the tours, checked out the church history museum, and discovered that wilford woodruff was a very small man, but he owned a stylish suit for sure.

i couch surfed the first night and stayed with a fairly nice former LDS member in good standing, he was a good host, and gave me cranberry bagels for breakfast.

so i could be theoretically scoping utah out as a place to live for a bit, likely not on a permanent basis, but maybe for long enough to school myself. i dunno.

been a while

so lets see... ive not blogged in ages i know... i told you all about the wieght loss contest i entered... well... I WON!

im doing quite well on some of my resolutions, and not so well on others, but ive made progress on them all. so its a start.

reflections on the shimmering sea

so, ive had a bit of time to think these past few days and i think i may have pegged down a couple of the things that lead to my problems.

first off, i play video games when im bored.

because i dont want to sit at home and play video games all day im more likely to go out to eat when im bored, at least it gets me out of the house.

i have no drive to do anything by myself, id rather do things with others.

i only go for a walk alone when i really need time to think.

having a day off in the middle of the week is terrible because eveyone else is working.

boredom leads to depression, and im more likely to overeat when im bored as well.

i wish there was something i could do on weekdays that i actually have drive to do.

im going to go to the gym now, even though its boring and i hate it too.

oh my blog

wow, its been almost 2 weeks since i blogged, ive been so busy going to the gym to blog i suppose... thats good right, anyways, this diet is making me insaner.

im tired and hungry and im getting ready to go to the gym.

i can run faster than a cold

speedily the virus fled, but unable to avoid me he decided to rough me up before his inevitable defeat. so yeah, im coming off of a cold, i think it should be mostly gone by tomorrow maybe tuesday...

in other news, apparently i managed to accidentally answer a call while at work and not knowing, and the person who called me said all they heard was a bunch of beeps, so i must have been checking. crazy huh, i let kelly corkran through my line after i was supposed to have shut down, then while on my way out one of my coworkers decided to play a prank on me after he went and talked to her while i was counting down my till. freaked me out a little. hehe.

there was something else i wanted to blog about but ive totally forgotten what it was. so later i guess.

the biggest loser at work

so in celebration with the most (un)resoluted resolution, i heve entered wincos biggest loser competition (i dont even think anyone there but me calls it that) where we pay 25 bucks to get in and after 6 weeks, whoever lost the highest percentage of wieght wins the pot, my entrance made the pot 450 dollars so its nothing to sneeze at, but i did anyways, because i think running around in the rain after the dance helped me catch a cold, and my morning bike ride to work didnt help either.

anyways, wish me luck and while i dont want you to stop me from eating entirely, feel free to suggest a healthier alternative for the time being, at least until feb 13th.

church... precious precious church

so as many of you (you know, all like... 5 of you that actually read this) know, church has been snowed over for the past 2 weeks and today i feel like the wanderer who has finally found water in the desert, and its not for the gospel, because i have a computer with access to talks and i have my scriptures, but i miss all of my friends and church is usually my only window into that world, and its good to be back, even though the heat is so high in the building im seconds away from falling asleep in there.

im planning on heading to the big big dance on new years, hope to see you all there, and just to let you all know dancing is great excersize, and its fun, so perhaps for those of you whos new years resolution it is to lose weight, perhaps instead of just trying to diet, and going to the gym (which is no fun) go dancing instead, take lessons (WAY MORE FUN!) just a thought, it helped me, i used to weigh about 300 lbs.

i dont want crocodiles or rhinoceroseses

christmas list!
I got a coffee table, new shoes, new garments, new socks, a new flashlight, a yellow tuxedo jacket (NOT NEW, vintage from the 70s) and a fifty dollar bill.

and ive been a cashier too long, after pulling the fifty out of the card i immediately checked the watermark, the number strip and the gold to green stamp.

it was real.

so christmas has come and gone, and life, hopefully, returns to normal, getting presents is fun and exciting but overall this holiday season has been a depressing exclamation point to a depressing year.

i have so much to be happy and excited for, but i usually dont feel it, i have friends and family that love me yet i always seem to be surrounded with gloom, even though i dont show it. going dancing my allow me to ignore it for a brief period of time, but, ultimately the doom and gloom that is my life rush back in like the tide.

i am not as active as i wish i were, i play more video games than i want to. but i usually have nothing else to do, and it is the only thing that i have that wont bore me to sleep. i want to do things, i need to do things, i need to get my license, i need to start dating women, i need to fill my free time with worthwhile activities, i wish my job had a set schedule so i could plan things out weeks in advance, sadly i get maybe a week and a half to plan stuff.

if you plan or hear of something i might be interested in, please let me know, as i am bike bound currently, i may need/desire rides, i am willing to compensate for gas and the like. but i am going to make getting a license a priority, then a car.

ive already thought of my new years resolution, last year i resolved to not procrastinate and put it off til this year, and its on my list, but getting a license, dating and not being so bloody depressed all the time are also resolutions that i have, and i am not to proud to refuse help.

the finer points in life always seem to dissapoint

friday was one of the hardest days i can remember dealing with, some times i get so depressed that i get so unsure of what to do, part of me wants to get over the issue, but on the other hand the other part doesn't want to, i still want to pursue it, but i cant at the moment without creating weird awkward situations, so im torn between whether to wait it out and see if it goes my way (which of course means it will have to go against someone else, and i consider this person a friend) because im worried that if i am not prepared that the same will happen again and i will be to slow to act on events and circumstances, and part of me wants to blame the snow for ruining my chances, but then again i could see some of the events unfolding well before sunday. a friend has offered me advice, and i know that it is good advice, but i don't know if i want to give up yet, i just wish that i could express my feelings better in times and situations where its actually important.

white week and a half before christmas

so the snow came, people freaked, people got in accidents, church was canceled and some people didnt have to work, i still did.

the roads arent too hard to drive on, even without chains, if your careful. so because it will supposedly snow again on wednesday, everyone who was caught completely off guard by sundays will be packing themselves into the stores to stock up on you name it.

i even remember on last thursday checking out the fella who realized he didnt have enough beer if he got snowed in, doesnt need food or water... nope... beer.

there are a lot of crazies running around out there folks, drive safe.

I was wrong

okso the last 5 years the snow never comes when the weather dude says it will, and then all out of the blue this year it actually arrives on time. how was I supposed to know, of course, the snow ruined all of my plans for the day. but im sure i can always postpone them, and i recently found out i should have done it on saturday in the morning but i didnt know that until later that day.

I get to go to work tommorow, no clue how thats going to work though... i guess we will see eh?

power of the atom

so my xbox is still out of the state being fixed, and in its absence (and the absence of fallout 3) ive taken to the first 2 games, already re beat the first and am half through the second, still good times, definately want the 360 back though, i miss it so.

hip hop crisy

last night, me n my posse had a party,
we all got together though some were tardy.
but it was chill and we all watched the knight,
and ate a bunch of soup, you know thats right!

so my party went really good and i want to thank everyone that came, and as far as everyone else there will be other parties. so no frets k?

appoints

ok, now i am officially done being mopey about stuff, mopey is the start of a not good path anyhow and i dont want to waste my time, its good for no one, and as ive stated on my facebooks and my other space im starting early for next years halloween.

so far i have a friend who is going to let me have 12 tires and a stop sign, and if he has an old power drill he said i could have that too...

what am i you may be asking, why... a wasteland warrior of course, many of you have likely not seen mad max or one of the rip off movies, cause they are usually r rated, unless theyve been edited for the telly, but if you have you get the idea.

long story short, after the apocalypse we will have to make body armor out of recycled trash. if you wanna join my wasteland gang let me know, i have plenty of tires to make armor from.

dissapoints part duex

so on top of what i already said, the main reason that i feel the way i do is because it took me a very very long time to actually do it, not because of sloth, but if anything more out of fear, i worry that it may be a while before i try it again, but i hope that im not in a rut about it. i just need more self confidence i guess, and i dont know what store sells it by the dozen.

and on another sad note, the box for my broken xbox came today and i sent it out, i know ill get a new one or this one fixed, but i still feel the same way i did as a child when i had to flush my beta down the toilet.

dissappoints

I tried to do something last night that I hadn't tried in a long time, and much like last time it didn't really turn out the way I had hoped, it still turned out ok, but with it not going how I wanted it, I wonder if maybe there is something wrong with how I am going about it, or if maybe there is just something wrong with me. I can't quite put my finger on it.

turkey murder day

so up until now ive had about 5 thanksgiving dinners, 1 on monday, 1 on wednesday, 2 on thursday and 1 yesterday (friday) and i'm loving it, i love turkey, its got to be one of my favorite meats, but sadly its not available all that often, so this year i bought one for my freezer since i wouldnt need it on thanksgiving. and i also bought a goose for christmas

sushi summary

I came up with this thesis a long time ago, many of you will doubt it, since it will be against what may have been brainwashed or imprinted into your mind.

No one really likes sushi, they may say they do, and may even believe it, but it's a LIE! No one, not even the Japanese like it, for them it's culture, for us it's chic, so many of us claim to be big fans.

You see... long time ago in feudal Japan, a dignitary from an opposing clan came to visit one of the local Daimyos at his palace, because to simply kill the dignitary would violate the codes of bushido and be an affront to honor, the Daimyo had to device a cunning plot to be able to kill the dignitary in a legitimate manner.

So he concocted sushi, he instructed his head chef to make something of the worst ingredients imaginable, horseradish (yuck!) cold rice (eww!) seaweed (gross!) and raw fish (like ummm.... NO!) and mix it all together, so it could be served to the dignitary and then after the dignitary expressed his disgust, the Daimyo could kill him for offending his honor.

But the dignitary was smarter than that, he knew his life would be in danger, and was on his toes (except when sitting, they do that on their knees over there) and after eating the horrid sushi, told the daimyo that it was delicious. Aghast at the turn of events, the Daimyo had to eat it and claim to love it as well as to not look bad in front of all the other Daimyos. So he did, and one of the biggest lies ever told began...

No one wanted to go against the Daimyo and the traveling dignitary, so when given to people they said they loved it, and news traveled the land of this 'wonderful' new food (please!) and now its reached the status it is today, the evil sushi conglomerates probably don't even eat sushi, they just make sure that it is expensive so people will think it's chic and trendy. but they also allow there to be cheap supermarket sushi for the masses.

look... if two wrongs don't make a right, then four wrongs definitely don't make a right. they should make a left, as in left in the trash where sushi belongs.

(4 wrongs = cold rice, horseradish, seaweed, raw fish = still WRONG!)

I hope you all enjoyed my rant.