reflections on the shimmering sea

so, ive had a bit of time to think these past few days and i think i may have pegged down a couple of the things that lead to my problems.

first off, i play video games when im bored.

because i dont want to sit at home and play video games all day im more likely to go out to eat when im bored, at least it gets me out of the house.

i have no drive to do anything by myself, id rather do things with others.

i only go for a walk alone when i really need time to think.

having a day off in the middle of the week is terrible because eveyone else is working.

boredom leads to depression, and im more likely to overeat when im bored as well.

i wish there was something i could do on weekdays that i actually have drive to do.

im going to go to the gym now, even though its boring and i hate it too.