the finer points in life always seem to dissapoint

friday was one of the hardest days i can remember dealing with, some times i get so depressed that i get so unsure of what to do, part of me wants to get over the issue, but on the other hand the other part doesn't want to, i still want to pursue it, but i cant at the moment without creating weird awkward situations, so im torn between whether to wait it out and see if it goes my way (which of course means it will have to go against someone else, and i consider this person a friend) because im worried that if i am not prepared that the same will happen again and i will be to slow to act on events and circumstances, and part of me wants to blame the snow for ruining my chances, but then again i could see some of the events unfolding well before sunday. a friend has offered me advice, and i know that it is good advice, but i don't know if i want to give up yet, i just wish that i could express my feelings better in times and situations where its actually important.