i dont want crocodiles or rhinoceroseses

christmas list!
I got a coffee table, new shoes, new garments, new socks, a new flashlight, a yellow tuxedo jacket (NOT NEW, vintage from the 70s) and a fifty dollar bill.

and ive been a cashier too long, after pulling the fifty out of the card i immediately checked the watermark, the number strip and the gold to green stamp.

it was real.

so christmas has come and gone, and life, hopefully, returns to normal, getting presents is fun and exciting but overall this holiday season has been a depressing exclamation point to a depressing year.

i have so much to be happy and excited for, but i usually dont feel it, i have friends and family that love me yet i always seem to be surrounded with gloom, even though i dont show it. going dancing my allow me to ignore it for a brief period of time, but, ultimately the doom and gloom that is my life rush back in like the tide.

i am not as active as i wish i were, i play more video games than i want to. but i usually have nothing else to do, and it is the only thing that i have that wont bore me to sleep. i want to do things, i need to do things, i need to get my license, i need to start dating women, i need to fill my free time with worthwhile activities, i wish my job had a set schedule so i could plan things out weeks in advance, sadly i get maybe a week and a half to plan stuff.

if you plan or hear of something i might be interested in, please let me know, as i am bike bound currently, i may need/desire rides, i am willing to compensate for gas and the like. but i am going to make getting a license a priority, then a car.

ive already thought of my new years resolution, last year i resolved to not procrastinate and put it off til this year, and its on my list, but getting a license, dating and not being so bloody depressed all the time are also resolutions that i have, and i am not to proud to refuse help.