church... precious precious church

so as many of you (you know, all like... 5 of you that actually read this) know, church has been snowed over for the past 2 weeks and today i feel like the wanderer who has finally found water in the desert, and its not for the gospel, because i have a computer with access to talks and i have my scriptures, but i miss all of my friends and church is usually my only window into that world, and its good to be back, even though the heat is so high in the building im seconds away from falling asleep in there.

im planning on heading to the big big dance on new years, hope to see you all there, and just to let you all know dancing is great excersize, and its fun, so perhaps for those of you whos new years resolution it is to lose weight, perhaps instead of just trying to diet, and going to the gym (which is no fun) go dancing instead, take lessons (WAY MORE FUN!) just a thought, it helped me, i used to weigh about 300 lbs.

i dont want crocodiles or rhinoceroseses

christmas list!
I got a coffee table, new shoes, new garments, new socks, a new flashlight, a yellow tuxedo jacket (NOT NEW, vintage from the 70s) and a fifty dollar bill.

and ive been a cashier too long, after pulling the fifty out of the card i immediately checked the watermark, the number strip and the gold to green stamp.

it was real.

so christmas has come and gone, and life, hopefully, returns to normal, getting presents is fun and exciting but overall this holiday season has been a depressing exclamation point to a depressing year.

i have so much to be happy and excited for, but i usually dont feel it, i have friends and family that love me yet i always seem to be surrounded with gloom, even though i dont show it. going dancing my allow me to ignore it for a brief period of time, but, ultimately the doom and gloom that is my life rush back in like the tide.

i am not as active as i wish i were, i play more video games than i want to. but i usually have nothing else to do, and it is the only thing that i have that wont bore me to sleep. i want to do things, i need to do things, i need to get my license, i need to start dating women, i need to fill my free time with worthwhile activities, i wish my job had a set schedule so i could plan things out weeks in advance, sadly i get maybe a week and a half to plan stuff.

if you plan or hear of something i might be interested in, please let me know, as i am bike bound currently, i may need/desire rides, i am willing to compensate for gas and the like. but i am going to make getting a license a priority, then a car.

ive already thought of my new years resolution, last year i resolved to not procrastinate and put it off til this year, and its on my list, but getting a license, dating and not being so bloody depressed all the time are also resolutions that i have, and i am not to proud to refuse help.

the finer points in life always seem to dissapoint

friday was one of the hardest days i can remember dealing with, some times i get so depressed that i get so unsure of what to do, part of me wants to get over the issue, but on the other hand the other part doesn't want to, i still want to pursue it, but i cant at the moment without creating weird awkward situations, so im torn between whether to wait it out and see if it goes my way (which of course means it will have to go against someone else, and i consider this person a friend) because im worried that if i am not prepared that the same will happen again and i will be to slow to act on events and circumstances, and part of me wants to blame the snow for ruining my chances, but then again i could see some of the events unfolding well before sunday. a friend has offered me advice, and i know that it is good advice, but i don't know if i want to give up yet, i just wish that i could express my feelings better in times and situations where its actually important.

white week and a half before christmas

so the snow came, people freaked, people got in accidents, church was canceled and some people didnt have to work, i still did.

the roads arent too hard to drive on, even without chains, if your careful. so because it will supposedly snow again on wednesday, everyone who was caught completely off guard by sundays will be packing themselves into the stores to stock up on you name it.

i even remember on last thursday checking out the fella who realized he didnt have enough beer if he got snowed in, doesnt need food or water... nope... beer.

there are a lot of crazies running around out there folks, drive safe.

I was wrong

okso the last 5 years the snow never comes when the weather dude says it will, and then all out of the blue this year it actually arrives on time. how was I supposed to know, of course, the snow ruined all of my plans for the day. but im sure i can always postpone them, and i recently found out i should have done it on saturday in the morning but i didnt know that until later that day.

I get to go to work tommorow, no clue how thats going to work though... i guess we will see eh?

power of the atom

so my xbox is still out of the state being fixed, and in its absence (and the absence of fallout 3) ive taken to the first 2 games, already re beat the first and am half through the second, still good times, definately want the 360 back though, i miss it so.

hip hop crisy

last night, me n my posse had a party,
we all got together though some were tardy.
but it was chill and we all watched the knight,
and ate a bunch of soup, you know thats right!

so my party went really good and i want to thank everyone that came, and as far as everyone else there will be other parties. so no frets k?

appoints

ok, now i am officially done being mopey about stuff, mopey is the start of a not good path anyhow and i dont want to waste my time, its good for no one, and as ive stated on my facebooks and my other space im starting early for next years halloween.

so far i have a friend who is going to let me have 12 tires and a stop sign, and if he has an old power drill he said i could have that too...

what am i you may be asking, why... a wasteland warrior of course, many of you have likely not seen mad max or one of the rip off movies, cause they are usually r rated, unless theyve been edited for the telly, but if you have you get the idea.

long story short, after the apocalypse we will have to make body armor out of recycled trash. if you wanna join my wasteland gang let me know, i have plenty of tires to make armor from.

dissapoints part duex

so on top of what i already said, the main reason that i feel the way i do is because it took me a very very long time to actually do it, not because of sloth, but if anything more out of fear, i worry that it may be a while before i try it again, but i hope that im not in a rut about it. i just need more self confidence i guess, and i dont know what store sells it by the dozen.

and on another sad note, the box for my broken xbox came today and i sent it out, i know ill get a new one or this one fixed, but i still feel the same way i did as a child when i had to flush my beta down the toilet.

dissappoints

I tried to do something last night that I hadn't tried in a long time, and much like last time it didn't really turn out the way I had hoped, it still turned out ok, but with it not going how I wanted it, I wonder if maybe there is something wrong with how I am going about it, or if maybe there is just something wrong with me. I can't quite put my finger on it.

turkey murder day

so up until now ive had about 5 thanksgiving dinners, 1 on monday, 1 on wednesday, 2 on thursday and 1 yesterday (friday) and i'm loving it, i love turkey, its got to be one of my favorite meats, but sadly its not available all that often, so this year i bought one for my freezer since i wouldnt need it on thanksgiving. and i also bought a goose for christmas

sushi summary

I came up with this thesis a long time ago, many of you will doubt it, since it will be against what may have been brainwashed or imprinted into your mind.

No one really likes sushi, they may say they do, and may even believe it, but it's a LIE! No one, not even the Japanese like it, for them it's culture, for us it's chic, so many of us claim to be big fans.

You see... long time ago in feudal Japan, a dignitary from an opposing clan came to visit one of the local Daimyos at his palace, because to simply kill the dignitary would violate the codes of bushido and be an affront to honor, the Daimyo had to device a cunning plot to be able to kill the dignitary in a legitimate manner.

So he concocted sushi, he instructed his head chef to make something of the worst ingredients imaginable, horseradish (yuck!) cold rice (eww!) seaweed (gross!) and raw fish (like ummm.... NO!) and mix it all together, so it could be served to the dignitary and then after the dignitary expressed his disgust, the Daimyo could kill him for offending his honor.

But the dignitary was smarter than that, he knew his life would be in danger, and was on his toes (except when sitting, they do that on their knees over there) and after eating the horrid sushi, told the daimyo that it was delicious. Aghast at the turn of events, the Daimyo had to eat it and claim to love it as well as to not look bad in front of all the other Daimyos. So he did, and one of the biggest lies ever told began...

No one wanted to go against the Daimyo and the traveling dignitary, so when given to people they said they loved it, and news traveled the land of this 'wonderful' new food (please!) and now its reached the status it is today, the evil sushi conglomerates probably don't even eat sushi, they just make sure that it is expensive so people will think it's chic and trendy. but they also allow there to be cheap supermarket sushi for the masses.

look... if two wrongs don't make a right, then four wrongs definitely don't make a right. they should make a left, as in left in the trash where sushi belongs.

(4 wrongs = cold rice, horseradish, seaweed, raw fish = still WRONG!)

I hope you all enjoyed my rant.

note to self... blog more often

so a couple of interesting yet ultimately useless comments today, about a week-ish ago i saw some interesting vanity plates, [I OWN U] was hilarious and i think that guy was a video gamer, likely tried to get [I PWN U] but it was taken, but the best one was for sure [DMV SUX] because they had to go through the dmv to get i im sure.

thanksgiving is coming, and winco feels like a circus where the animals and freaks are incharge, fo sho! people run around like chickens with their heads cut off and wonder why its so bad, and you tell them its because thanksgiving is soon and theyre like, but its saturday, and i wanna slap them and say YEAH! the saturday BEFORE thanksgiving you MORON. its only going to get worse from here, if you still gotta do it do it sonner rather than later and later in the evening.

i went dancing tonight, well last night technically, and i feel great, i havent been since college night on the first and thats not even really november, so its the first time ive been in november as far as im concerned.

menagerie

so, a lot has happened since i last blogged, most notably, the elections and such, so for the actual persons involved, my candidates didnt get voted, but we told bill sizemore where he can stick his initiatives, so thats good.

as far as the president elect, until he does something rediculously stupid he will have my support as an american citizen, i will not look at every little thing he does with hypocritical scrutiny and then have host a riot and claim its a rally when i dont like something, of course i have my fears concerning his policies, but i do have the good fortune of working at a place where i wont likely have to deal with the fallout that could potentially arise from his economical decisions, worst case scenario... his election is making me more eager to get a food storage going, in preparation for the worst possible outcome. had mccain been elected i would likely be more complacent about it and still not gotten on board with it.

my vampire costume won 3rd place at the works halloween contest, and then a bunch of people at work said that i was robbed by whoever was chosen to be the judges, but i dont care.

dinner on sunday, making spanish rice, invite one of my home teachees, desha, cause shes one of the cool kids. hope she makes it.

waning moon

so im starting to blog less and less, i generally fear that i might be the only one reading it, and trust me i dont read my blog so there... i have a follower on it but i dunno how often she reads it. maybe ill get a comment on this eh?

open sesame

so today, well... yesterday, i made sesame chicken for dinner for everyone, and it turned out great, but i came to the conclusion that its not too great for you what with the 4 cups of sugar i had to add and all, but then again, i could likely have made half as much sauce and we'd have been fine. i made it without chicken broth for ariel and it still turned out great, but ive not had it with chicken broth yet, so who knows eh? maybe this will have been better. but the funny thing was the cans were clearly labelled as 'vegetarian' vegetable broth, as though there was another kind. i also threw in some peanuts for kicks and giggles.

they're watching you

so today i fed the missionaries some chinese food that i delicately hand made myself, it was good, but a humorous thing happened, another elder called them during the meal asking if they had found a watch when they left that he had left behind on a prior exchange. im pretty sure he wasnt actually yelling out of anger or anything, im sure it was mostly sarcastic but i could hear him from the other side of the room yelling that he 'wanted his watch back', cause 'since they moved to a new place and took everything that they must have it'. and poor elder de souza i dont know if he realized he was joking if he even was so i asked for the phone and my conversation with this elder jamison went something like this (it may be slightly different because i forget things, and i changed the other elders name to protect the him)...

me- hello, what seems to be the problem?
elder jamison (ej)- i want my dang watch back!
me- i guess i dont know about you, but i wear my watch on my wrist and when i take it off i make sure to remember it when i go somewhere right?
ej- who is this?
me- my name is nathan doyle, the missionaries are having dinner at my place when you called, youre quite loud, i can hear you from the other side of the room. now when i wear a watch i usually keep it on my wrist, you do too right?
ej- yes (i could tell he sounded a little worried)
me- so if you left it behind you had to take it off right?
ej- yes (i wonder if he thought i was going to call the mission pres)
me- so ill tell you what, if they find it ill have them tell you.
ej- i just wanted my watch back
me- well dont worry, im sure that if they find it they will let you know... ok?
(i hung up on him)

the greenie that was with elder do souza, elder zufelt or feltman or someting, im so bad with names, thought what i did was so cool and the greenie game me a high five. and they liked the food, so i was happy. the end.

disappearances

so on wednesday we had someone at work walk out at lunch, and since he was already skating on very thin ice and on the verge of being fired anyhow, when he called the next morning he was told that he shouldnt bother to come back to work, so, instead of working 1000 to 630 thew wanted me to work a closing shift, i accepted, cause im such a nice guy, even though i had to miss west coast swing that night. so this morning they asked me to come in again, but i gotta clean and feed the missionaries so i couldnt and it would have racked me up some overtime, but tomorrowthey wanted me too and more overtime, so im working someone elses 1130 to 800 shift. yay for overtime monies! now i just need someone to spend it on other than myself.

really close to the middle.

Ok Cupid has revamped and remade their politics test, where they ask you a couple of questions, none of which are hot button issues, and try to gauge where you fall on the political spectrum, i took this test about 2 years ago and decided to take it again. I have changed a little but not much, last time I took it my results were 31% socially permissive and 50% economically permissive, seems that I've become more economically permissive in these last couple of years.

Also, when you take the test itself on the site they have a bunch of peoples faces on the graph to demonstrate who you fall under, the new version includes both candidates, albeit not their veeps, and several other prominent figures, like Darth Vader on the totalitarian side, and a bunch of other people I don't really recognize.

You are a Social Conservative (31% permissive) and an... Economic Moderate (56% permissive) You are best described as a: Republican Link: The Politics Test on OkCupid.com: Free Online Dating Also : The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

selling out

so im going to try and win a free handbag becuase really, who doesn't need another handbag, i know i definately have a need for one.

Get lost!

so today we were going to go dancing but due to a lack of vehicular transport we werent really able to, but we did manage to deliver the cookies to SaR today, and that made them happy, which made me happy. so... that's that eh?

tales of an over medicated friend

mind you, thats tales of, not tales from, my friend remembers next to nothing of what happened, fo all all of us know daniel could have made everything up. but it was hilarious, and ariel was cool about it too, not upset that we were laughing at her involuntary acting like a special ed student. apparently her doctor didnt believe her that she had tried that medication when she was 12 and had an allergic reaction to it.

church was good, colonel sanders spoke (apparently he went on his mission to kentucky and his facial hair and bowtie did kinda make him look like the late great chicken chef. saw the brotha who got back from korea the lucky son of a gun, and he got me a tie like i requested, hopefully i can get a hold of it one of these days, and i still need to give that tv of mine to emily.

and sunday dinner tonight was great, we had hawaiian haystacks, but i didnt cuase i dont like pineapple with that kind of stuff so i had rice with chicken and cheese, and daniel told everyone the story of his sister (twas my second hearing, and it was still good) the bishop stopped by to give ariel a blessin and beths ankle is still sprained but she'll live... i hope.

egging me on

so in case you havent already heard or surmised from my status updates on the webernets, i cut my thumb open pretty bad while opening boxes of eggs at work, and you always take them things for granted, today tying my tie was far more difficult than it should have been and on top of that i needed my roomates help to buttun my top button on my shirt and the cuffs. i hope it heals quicklysadly its pretty deep, far deeper than any of my philosophies, about a half centimeter.

check please

so anyways today was day two of cashiering, and so far i enjoy it everyone has been pretty nice, and nothing major has gone wrong, yesterday greg beth and i went blues dancing, it was pretty good too, so i was checking again today and i have way more energy than is needed for checking as i was dancing at my checkstand. im thinking of going dancing tonight, but only if i can ensure a ride home from the beaverton bus station, dont want to get stuck walking after that... so i forgot to ask for next wednesday off, so i may not be going with for delivering cookies to SAR and beth has planed for everyone to go to wednesday WCS at the paradise, hopefully im not closing or whatever, unless its already super late though i can bus/bike in to it late.

Lot Puck

so it was group a's turn again, and again we had it at beths place, i should clean my place up to have it here sometime, but at first we were in a frantic rush to get more food, because we thought there might have been 30 people there, so i took over some extra pasta and sauce, but we wound up not needing it after all, there were only about 15 or so there, i didnt actually count. buton top of that some of the people who came had already started cooking their own roast well before church had started so he brought it along and there was plenty of food in the end. karista tried to start a food fight though and hit me with some spagetti. but it was coo she didnt get it on my pants, just my shirt, and the shirt was bought on clearance. dunno what the deal is going to be for next time, what with work and all i may not get to go too often.

emphatical piratical

so yesterday i was at the pirate festival all day long, we arrived at around noonish and i didnt leave until 10pm saw tons of awesome things and stuff, and hung out with a bunch of friends from church too, poor noel though, had some interesting comments made in her direction and didnt get it, everyone kept trying to help her understand but maybe it was better she didnt understand, but eventually she got it and was a little embarrassed, i put all of my photos up on facebook, and ill get them on myspace one of these days, personally i think facebook is way better. and ive finally drawn a mental image of what my final pirate costume is going to look like, all these other years ive just been having at it with what i had on hand and the occasional accessory that ive bought. maybe someday i'll convert the mental image into an actuall image and yall can take a look eh?

assailed by boredom

as much as i love having days off, it seems that i rarely enjoy them as much as i think i would, today has been nothing but boring thus far, i plan on hearing my dad play music but that doesnt start until 9pm, and i was invited to go to a game night activity at a friends house at 8pm but i would have no way to get from there to aloha to hear my dad short of a taxicab, but maybe i'll think of something. the pirate festival is tomorrow so that will give me something to do.

singing piratey things

i am eager with anticipation for the pirate festival here in portland, i have everything ready for my costume. today my mother sister and i went to some pirate store in the mall, it was ok, but for the most part i was disappointed, but the place does have a party room you can rent, so thats pretty cool, i suggested that they add a pirate movie rack (not a pirated movie rack mind you) because all week ive been wanting to watch 'cutthroat island' with gena davis, the best pirate movie ever made, now i like 'pirates of the carribean' but 'cutthroat' is just way better, trust me. so captain bogg and salty have a new album that will be availible at the festival and the cool bodice lady will be there from damsel in this dress, i cant even wear her clothing (well i guess i can but... no) but sometimes i wish i was married so i could buy some stuff for my wife hehe. i will be dressed to the nines at the fair, and will be taking a load of photographs. maybe ill order a new hat too.

meh..

so i opted out of dancing for tonight, mainly because getting home at late late hours is rough, as of writing this sentence i am in an invigorating political debate with a good friend of mine. in fact i started this blog a half hour ago and am just now getting to this sentence, but as i said earlier, im gonna be a checker and in grocery now, so maybe look out for me when you checkout at the store.

last day

so after today if you see me at winco it might actually be at a checkstand, gravy huh! working in gorcery will be easier for me to go to church on sundays and thats whats important to me in my life right now, the singles ward, cause im tired of being single. anyhow, im getting ready to go dancing tonight, maybe ill see persons that i know.

cookies and stuff

so after about halfway through baking a new batch of cookies for search and rescue, i remembered to call sgt oleson and get the address for their meetings, since it wasnt in the multnomah county admin building on hawthorne, but it turns out its at an office on glisan streat, but she also told me the next two meetings are recruitment meetings and there are already going to be a crap ton of cookies there to bribe potential recruits... so i have several dozen cookies if anyone wants any.

psilver bug psycho

so while riding my bike home some guy driving a silver bug (vanity plates too GERI-ME) decided to honk at me in frustration because he couldnt pass me while in an intersection and while turning, which even if he could have would have been illegal for him to do so, and dangerous to boot (hence why i dont give people enough room while i make a left turn) but thats ok, because i have tomorrow off, i bought a bunch of fennel stalks and im going to enjoy eating them, and i also got some anise seeds to mix with my mint to make a delightful tea, i also want to try using it as a mulling spice for cider one of these days (both anise and fennel taste like licorice which makes me happy) i missed fhe today which makes me sad, sad, sad, i love fhe and i love seeing all my friends there, i open on wednesday but that marks the end of an era, my last day in produce, after that i will be at a checkstand for a couple of weeks, and then grocery floor clerk, primarily due to the fact that they have a crap ton of employees it will be easier for terry to if he schedules me on sundays for me to still go to church and then work afterwards, so i can go to church more often, i will likely miss out on our dinner parties which i love, but church is more important and ill see all the same peeps there anyhow. the other good thing, if i wind up staying at winco forever which i doubt, you have to be grocery to climb the corporate ladder higher. which is theoretically lucrative, if i can handle it.

soda or powder

so i went shopping for the cookie ingredients and i couldnt remember if my recipe wanted baking soda or baking powder, so i bought both, and then i got home and noticed that i already had baking powder, and then found out it was baking soda all along. sheesh. so anyways, i will be making some chocolate mint chip cookies this time, but since you cant get the actual green mint chips at winco until christmas time i had to compromise and went with the pastel mints from bulk foods, which is cool because the minst are green pink and yello so they will be my 'chocolate mint confetti cookies' today was the last day im closing in produce this week, tomorrow im off by 830 which is still pretty lame because i wont be able to go to fhe then i have tuesday off and open on munday and then i have the rest of the week off... maybe. we lost another new employee in produce so my hopes and dreams may be dashed, this was set to be my last week in produce too.

pirate festival coming up, which reminds me of a really lame joke...

why didnt the pirate buy any corn?






because it was a buchaneer.

helping hands

so yesterday was alrite, before work i got to help the roommate of my home teachee desha move some stuff into her new place, she was pretty nice and pretty cool and such, and i like to help people with stuff, after that though i had another closer at work and i get to do another one today and miss church... yay... yesterday though i got yelled at for doing laundry and washing some of teh rags, i even asked first if there was time to do it, but apparently the time ran out before i had a chance to put the rags in teh dryer. dont have a day off til tuesday and i need to be getting ready to bake more cookies again, bacause last time it fell through with me getting lost... ironic eh?

work yay

so today was another usuall closer at work, i get to do it again tomorrow and on sunday, i bought a box of splenda to try it, and sugar just in case i dont like it. i meant to write down the prices of stuff for the facebook group and for the bulletin at church, jen decided or maybe it was someone else but jen was the one who told me that they want to post the deals and steals prices on the board in the building. i just gotta remember to do it. its so far turned out to be not as hard as remembering to brush my teeth in the morning. made some splenda mint iced tea, sugar is better but its not too terrible, i really need to cut down on my sugars, but splenda is like 10 times more money. and im sad cause im gonna miss dinner on sunday.

Always designate a driver

so i went and karaoked with a coworker and her cuzin, and we didnt finish until late, and the two of them were pretty drunk let me tell you... actually i wont tell you, but suffice it to say that they were drunk, they also made a new friend who was also drunk. anyhow i guess their plan was to walk home and get their car later, but even though i dont have an actual license i offered to drive them home and then walk back to the bar from their place, since i came on my bike in the first place, and it took them a while to agree, partly because they new i didnt have a license and because they were so wasted. anyways to make a long story short, i felt really good for having helped someone in need, even if their need was brought on by drinking too much. i didnt make it home until like 4am but its coo. im baller like that.

Scene 1- act 1- take 1

It was a dark and stormy night...
in a time of way overused cliches, the horrid blog bubbled as the cadavers of things long forgotten rot away in the filthy depths, but then a different movement catches your eye, a hand reaching up from the blog, and it reaches for...
YOU!

And so the horrible creature from the blog emerges... what is it you ask... well, I haven't thought that far ahead in the story actually.

so to start the blog off i'll start by talking a bit about the boring stuff i did all day

i had lunch, and then sat around horribly bored on my day off until 620 when i rode my bike to the ballroomdance company to go to Jimmy's 1 day workshop for west coast swing connection, so i didnt learn any new patterns, just how to be a better lead. and my mom wanted to borrow one of my swords so my sister could borrow it for the ren fair in corvallis, to get me to agree to it she bribed me with a ride home. so all in all i guess its ok.

looking forward to my dad playing music on the 19th and the pirate festival on the 20th and i feed the missionaries on the 22nd the first day of fall